33 and the Welcomed Evolution

I was born in the first month of the year which pleases me because if I screw up on my New Year's Resolutions, my birthday is always my next option of days to make change-but fortunately the changes that have occurred in my life in 2011 are happening effortlessly. I'm learning a lot about things in my childhood that have been a mystery to me ~ as well as realizing that just because you've known someone from your past for a long time does not mean you have to bring them into your future. Sometimes it is those people from your past that think they know you so well that actually try to keep you from progressing and feel as though they have a right to label you. There are around six BILLION people in this world which leaves me with six BILLION opportunities to change my circle. A Facebook friend of mine by the name of George Lott recently posted: Show me 3 of your best friends and I'll show you your future. That has been in my head ever since I read it.

Luckily I've never had a problem being alone. Growing up in a house with 10 people, I had to search for solitude and it remains to this very day. People and the issues they bring can be dangerous and I myself can come off very...mmmm...cold. After losing my Great Aunt in 2002, I've discovered that I can actually take or leave anyone else that comes into my life (with the exception of my child which to me is a given).

Like everyone else on this planet, we've all been disappointed and hurt by people we love. Some people have no problem returning to that source of disappointment or pain while others learn and move on. What I've learned in my 33rd year of this life is that there is no point in trying to please ANYONE except myself and to provide love, food, water and shelter for my daughter. Only so many people will love you unconditionally. Those people~ when they do come along, we must hold on to...because they are few and far between.

"Peace in your struggle to find peace" - S.M.